full stop

i really hope there is a full stop to everything that is happening now...though its beyond my control...but the feelings...all of other's feelings...my parents' feelings...is crashing down on me...i fordunnowhateverreason can feel all other people's sadness...guess that's me being quite sensitive to others' feelings...which may be a good thing...though now i don't really appreciate it..the other reason may be cox i am part of the family...it is like this fact is long forgotten in my heart...but cox of this incident...i was brought back...together with them...i sort of thank God for this that has happened...that brought me closer back together with the rest...it may affect my family big time...but whatever...every trials has something to learn from...and i don't wanna waste this opportunity to learn something...to fight back for something that i could have forgotten/taken for granted about...thank u God...

enough of the sadness...i had it for 4consecutive days already...today is a brand new starting after i had released everything yesterday...though yesterday was sort of affected by the fact that my dad even cried...u know...u can imagine ur own dad crying...that sort of feeling...is really overwhelming...but i have learnt to take a more positive side...was putting strong front for the past few days...could take it no more...released it yesterday....and i am fine now...

i have learnt to not let this thing affect me...sort of advice from my parents...who really cared for me too...really thank them...though i don't say it out...but i know they can feel it...that is good enough...

full stop to everything.all my feelings.there it goes into the bin...

*not to worry about me...cox today is a brand new day...smiling helps =)