everything's changed, everything's different

since someone so wants me to blog i shall for now.haha.now u can read d lo=)

that aside, i acutally have some stuff that is kept inside and dunno how to express it to you.i shall make it clear here.or at least a chance for me to voice out so i feel more relieved.

towards u...everything turns to zero.null.i dun like u anymore, but i dun hate u.cox my believe has now become the very cliche thinking that whatever is mine will be mine.and that remains.though as i have said it is very typical but think in the godly way, seriously god has his plans for us.so i dunno what is it for my future or about bgr.my stand for now is i really am concentrating on my studies, and solely putting all my effort in it.and god.so if u are really doubting me, thinking that i am like finding someone else or whatever,hmm,i won't mind u thinking like that.cox i really have learned many lessons thru all that has happened.not to say the world for me has brightened up,but should put it in this way that i have really opened my eyes for myself to see how bright the world can be.if u are doubting me,thinking that i am actually finding another gal,u can dwell in that but i really swear,to god,i am sincerely only trying to mug hard for my A levels.aside of that i want to grow up in teenz,and serve Him wholeheartedly.that's all i want to do and i am doing.

comments about u i really dun have,well it is ur life and i really believe u are in fact more mature than me.it's ur life live the way u want it to be. i don't greet or smile back because i really am not prepared to do anything.sorry that things are like that but i really don't know what is the right thing for me to do now but my senses is prompting me to just ignore.cox my mood may get affected and i don't want that.

and it is not true that i was all that u were talking about when u were with me,and u really din do that.but hey in the end of the day u shall decide for urself whether u really trust what i say anymore,since u think so badly about me.

my last words for u is that.people always dun seem to be what they are from the outside.get to noe the whole situation,noe the person better,feel it with ur heart whether they are real.things from the outside is not always how u think it is.=)

haha now i feel more relieved saying things out.before that there was like this big bad feeling in my hearts but now it is gone after things are cleared.good luck to u in whatever u do in the future.

ask if there is any chance in the future,let god and fate decide that.that's all.